I have been running on empty for a while. There. I said it.
I recently went on a retreat with my small group of girls. We spent a beautiful weekend in North Georgia and I missed it. I was there, but I missed it. I didn’t realize how beautiful the fall season was until I just looked through the photos. I was too busy to notice. I was tired. Did I miss out on building relationships with them? Could I have poured more if I had been fuller?
The verse “be still and know that I am God” has been on my mind tonight. And trust me, it is not because I am being still. I am never still. I feel guilty when I am still. I become disappointed in myself when I am still. I feel like I am not doing enough and my time is a waste when I am still. But that isn’t what God says. He says to be still. What if all of my not being still has caused me to miss out on an opportunity to know God? Oh man. I have to learn that busyness and the feeling of guilt when I am not busy is from the enemy. I have to be still because I want to know God more and that is reason enough. Be still.